I love how serene she is…
I love how centred she is within herself…
I love how deeply connected she is…
I spent the last 6 weeks off social media
My first experience of public criticism had happened. Harsh words towards the emotive tone of my writing and my spirituality.
I`ve experienced negative reaction offline, but never online where all could see.
Those who know me in person – know that I am actually a very private, quiet, even shy person, although I sense the spirited child i was wants to return. What you see of me on social media is me sharing from an inner place of “knowing” this is what I must do. When my hands touch the keyboard, words flow forth easily most of the time. I am just the vessel to share something that could help another in some way.
My voice was gone…. gone…. gone.
I missed sharing. I missed posting a beautiful image.
This is one of my love languages – to offer something of beauty.
I missed chatting to the lovely soul sisters I have found online.
It was a rough time.
I stayed very close to my connection to Spirit.
There were times when my ego stepped in and I worried that i`d be forgotten.
This wasn’t the point of course.
I knew I needed to NOT feel vulnerable when I showed up again.
I knew I needed to OWN my voice, my truth yet again.
By week five I heard the whispers to get ready to begin sharing again.
I was “shown” which image and which quote to begin sharing after being away for so long.
I trusted. I responded.
I am actually grateful now for the reaction from this person because:
Her comment became a time of more spiritual growth for me.
My purpose became even more crystal clear
I answered the question I repeatedly asked myself which was: Why do I actually post?
I kept returning to the same answer.
My favourite metaphysical teacher here in Cape Town offered me a meditation cd for free. One which is beautifully aligned with my soulwork.
Syncronicity ……Divinely provided.
I received the message over and over:
That we all have a purpose.
We are not here just merely as a physical being.
Our greatest purpose is for our soul to evolve and grow spiritually – To make a difference. Everything else is of secondary nature.
The loudest message was: To show up authentically. Always.
That when it is time to show up as Spirit wants us to show up – then this calling MUST be honoured.
To not show up authentically would be a complete dishonouring of each of our individual purpose.
I know that i am not alone in the experience of being judged for following a spiritual path, especially one that is not a traditional one. I see many many women holding back, putting a lid on their personal experiences of the Sacred because its not in line with the more acceptable ways in which we have been raised.
I also see women finally answering the call to work intuitively in the many ways that there are – but apologizing for “coming out of the closet” with their spiritual gifts. This truly saddens me.
Sometimes we have personal experiences of the Divine that go beyond what we have been “told” it needs to be experienced as.
The thing about working intuitively is that the work becomes a collaboration with the Divine. There isn’t any way one can achieve this through purely our physical state.
Its as simple as that. A collaboration. How beautiful is that actually!!!
Women are naturally intuitive. It is their very essence. The quality has been suppressed and oppressed through the ages though. For some of us right now – the call to reclaim this is becoming a call that is getting louder and louder, hence the many who are answering the call to work in ways that offer a sense of healing.
I believe its each persons responsibility to seek what is truth for them and live that. unapologetically. esp if that truth is raising up the value of ones life and our interactions with others.
During this time i found this quote which touched the core of me:
“A goddess is a woman who emerges from deep within herself. She is a woman who has honestly explored her darkness and learned to celebrate her light. She is a woman who is able to fall in love with the magnificent possibilities within her. She is a woman who knows of the magic and mysterious places inside her, the sacred places that can nurture her soul and make her whole. She is a woman who radiates light. She is magnetic.”
YES there are rewards for taking the time to go within and face oneself.
So during my time off social media i explored the shadow parts of me: the ones that hold so much fear of being seen and criticized for showing up authentically.